Yesterday was Zombie Day. I was a zombie in a music video with a friend of mine. We took tons of pictures, which will go up :soon:, though she wished we'd taken more. =)
Something you will learn about me is that I am NOT a morning person. Never have been. Never will be. But an overload of coffee usually does the trick.
So I had to get up around 5am to be at her house by 6:30. Mornings have been especially hard lately. I cry, rage, scream, throw stuff, or some combination of those. I've been getting through the hurt day by day, and each day it gets easier. I don't know why this boy is affecting me so much. He's not special - he's not even that great... I guess it's just I haven't allowed myself to have feelings for someone in almost two years. But even that wasn't this hard.
What I've learned from this whole experience is that I no longer want to be frivolous with my heart. I'm ready to open up and let someone in - I don't want to keep these steel walls up anymore. And that is a really good feeling. For that, I am thankful. Thank you, boy, for re-awakening that part of me.
Now if I can just forget him.....
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